It was an eternal wait that day
a long perpetual tedious episode
an abuse on the senses,
the faces filling the clinic suite
sitting too close together at tables that encumbered,
all appearing the same, all resigned to their fate;
all stricken with disbelief.
I watched…
Can you put aside like dead flowers a mind that is full of fear?
Can you not feel the pain of those set faces that await
the ‘clarion call’ for news no one wishes to hear?
Can you relentlessly show that crumbling smile?
Can you quieten the beating of your own heart?
I watched the woman sitting opposite me, a reflection of myself,
sitting beside her Man, worry etching her face,
quietly waiting the prophecy that could change their lives,
was she to receive news that would set her Man free?
Set them both free!
I watched…I watched…
I watched this fragile life snap and break,
I watched those tears at another table…
All Rights Reserved @ Susie Hemingway 2010
* NB After being on Chemotherapy – Velcade + Dexamethasone (80mg weekly) since February 22 2010 Hamada’s Para-Protein (M-Spike) has only dropped to 15 He is to have a little break and then start Revlimid.
Oh Susie, yet another poem that touches my heart. We’ve seen so many worried faces during these past 4 years. Some times we’ve been in a stable place and I’ve watched others’ painful wait, while other times I have been one with those who wait. But always, we remain stoic and hopeful and positive for our men. Such a burden, but such a privilege, too. We again are waiting – have been referred to a lung doctor after a recent scan. ♥
A little sad again this one but a true reflection of what we so often see – many trying to be strong for the partners or friends – during these oh! so painful waits and such sadness of those getting bad news. I am sorry to know that Vern is having to consult with a lung specialist. I shall pray hard that nothing is showing there. Sending Love As Always.
Susie you and Hamada are such a shining example of courage, love and positivity to all of us. I pray for Hamadas treatment to go well and our thoughts are with you.
A Cuban In London said…
This is a very poignant piece. You keep the tension going even if one suspects the outcome. Many thanks.
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Amazing how great God is to give you the gift of words to comfort others in their most trying hours. Love your new poems and pics of flowers – another of God’s precious gifts. Ah, but you know full well the most important gift of all, “Time – to Love and be Loved”. You are a very smart Lady – God Bless You All!